Open Link Night ~ Week 131
Questioning heart
Tell me my love
When you ripped my heart open
And I bled tears
Did it bathe your wounds?
Or heal your scars?
When you painted my soul
with the black ink of betrayal
did a rainbow appear
in the mirror of your soul?
Please, sweetheart,
Do tell me
when you pierced my self esteem
with shrapnel of indifference
Did your lips taste sweetness?
or did your heart skip a beat?
Did you perchance feel a thrill
when you shattered my fragile anima
with your harsh silence?
Tell me my love
Did the keening of my lonely soul
turn into lullaby
When you laid yourself down to sleep?
Pray, tell me
Did you feel victorious?
With every promise you broke
And with each lie you uttered
Did you settle some score?
I so want to know,
Did it make you happy
To erase the memories I thought we made?
Or was it just a cake walk
To never give, but just take?
When I begged for scraps
Did it give you a high?
Or did peace dawn on you
When you heard me sigh?
Wonder if it ever bothered you darling
the mind games you played?
Leading me on with your worldly wise ways?
Kindly answer, for I do need to know
Why does my heart still ache without you
and life seems hollow?
The above poem was written for DVerse.To learn more and participate,please click on the link http://dversepoets.com/2014/02/04/open-link-night-week-131/
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@Zebra Crossing 
what conflicted emotions eh? we miss them….but then they only played mind games…..there is another poet that wrote tonight on the anniversary of an abusive fathers death and how that was making her feel…(maggie)
Truer words have never been spoken Brian-thank you so much for the thumbs up-will come by to read your post which I know will be awesome:-)
it’s tough and there is no easy way out… it can turn into a kind of addiction… i wish she had the power to really break free
You hit the nail on the head-it is an addiction,I too feel-letting go of such a habit is tough-heart keeps hankering for its “fix” ;-)Thank you so much for the kind comment Claudia-will come by to read yours in a couple of hours:-)
The feelings after a break-up.. we feel deceived… do they secretely enjoy.. where was the flaw? Very mournful poem.. but sometimes it’s time to let go.
Yes,it is very difficult but as you rightly said,no use holding on when it comes to that point-best to let go-time heals :-)Thank you so much for the lovely comment-will come by to read yours soon:-)
Hi Atreyee, this is so sad the loss of a relationship is so devastating and often without adequate explanation.
You expressed so very well.
Oh Michael,thank you so much-am glad you liked it:-)Am sure you have submitted one too-will come by to read in a few mins,tc friend
What a wonderfully bitter poem, I love it!
Thank you so much PP-appreciate your coming by to read and comment:-)
Your poem reminds me of a conversation I just had about women abuse, their relationship with their abuser and how hard it is sometimes for them to leave their husbands/partners despite the mistreatments.
Thank you Gabriella for coming by to read and for the comment:-)Yes,I know many such women and have never been able to comprehend their inability to free themselves-makes me wonder how some people can be such gluttons for punishment!
Oh, it is so very hard when a relationship ends with the loss of self esteem. Especially if one thinks that one was lied to all along!!
Yes,am sure it does and leads one to question where they have gone wrong-a vicious cycle!Thank you so much for coming by to read and comment ,Mary:-)
You describe a cad so well…and the devastation they leave behind. These type of people never really change and the next woman he meets will be in for more of the same. It’s really a blessing that they move out of our lives but yes, can be hard to let go because we do get accustomed to their presence. Best beat them to their game and end it first. That will do wonders for your self esteem!
I so agree-such habits are bad-addictions of this kind is self destructive and I feel really sorry for those who have to go through this-cannot imagine how they can stand it.But then I guess,the “cads” know who are weak enough to prey on-shudder!Thank you so much for coming by to read and for the wonderful comment:-)
Yes, you’re right…those cads do prey on the weak and unsuspecting. And you’re welcome! :~)
Gayle
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Excellent write! Full of emotion and flows nicely.
Oh,thanks a ton Charles:-)
It hardly seems fair that he’s clearly not right for her (or anyone, for that matter,) but yet she pines for him in the end.
Ah,life-its mostly unfair-no?I hope she will get over that insensitive man someday:-)Thanks Janna for coming by to read-always,love u xx Trifecta,here I come 😀
beautiful.. as hard as the questions are, sometimes knowing the answers is worse
I so agree:-)Thank you so much for coming by to read and for the lovely comment
He sounds like such a nice chap that I wonder how she ever loved him, let alone still does. You really pack this full of pain and yearning.
I know-cannot imagine-poor ,desperate girl!Thank you so much Sarah-will come by to read your posts this Sunday:-)
Beautifully written! 🙂 Captures the pain and suffering one goes through for unrequited love.
Thank you so much KM:-)